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The
Jinns
by Paul Schroeder
Monday – January
The fans seem to be working; either the little critters can’t
materialize, project invisibly, because of the swirling floor fans and
ceiling fan, of they’re afraid that they’ll be “sucked up”, or it
may be that the electromagnetic “inference”, set up somehow thwarts
them. I don’t believe that the invisible negative – though entities
(the “Jinns” who give me nightmares with horrible scenarios,) are the
same entities who “separated” my astral body from my physical body,
although I did awake later, again, to note that the ceiling fan I’d left
on had been shut off, and I awoke, drenched. So maybe the fan is a partial
defense…but against WHAT??! I had a peculiar nighttime experience of
high strangeness. I ‘awoke’, (out of my body) in darkness by the hall
steps just outside my bedroom. I thought I was, perhaps, in transit back
from the bathroom.
As I stood there, wrapped in darkness, something; some small
hand-puppet–like creature jumped on the back of my neck, gripping the
back and snugly, moving up, positioned itself into the hollow of the nape
of my neck, clinging tightly, snuggled deeply, holding on with a
clamp-like grip, warm small and unseen.
My hair stood straight up and I found I could not raise my arms to remove
it, despite quick wrenching spasms of my head, neck and shoulders to
dislodge it’s grip form the back of my neck.
I was paralyzed with panic, aware of this evil strange tiny creature
holding fast to my neck, and again realized that my gyrations and twitches
and spins were useless; it clung on the more tightly.
Again I panicked realizing my arms were not working, and the creature had
nestled snugly and held on, strange, silent and warmly stuck fast!
I realized that I was just outside the bedroom door and ran into the
bedroom yelling, “Susan! Susan! What’s on my neck?! What is it?! Can
you see it?! What’s on my NECK!!?” I writhed and danced.
I awoke, in bed, (in my body), with my wife, Susan, shaking me; leaning
over me, looking at me with concern in her eyes.
“You were having a bad dream,” she said “I had to wake you.”
I realized that the tampering interdimensional “leak” of critters and
my astral body – were more insidious and “tampering": could occur
when I was asleep and “wandering”…
Very strange and creepy indigestible spiritual questions loom and
dissipate. Only God can protect me.
Six months ago, strangely, at about five o’clock.
Mid –August, early in the morning, I awoke and looked up and down at my
body in bed.
My feet were floating above my feet; two sets of , one above, one below. I
was leaning up, waist bent, staring, feeling my whole body tingling,
vibrating and I thought, more in fear than in awe; “That’s what
happens at death?!!” My next unformed thought was that I had to stop
this; I didn’t want to die. But I fell into a deep sleep and awakened
later, exhausted, not remembering.
That night, before dinner, Susan told me that my whole body had “shook
without my seeing any appendage twitching” enough to wake her, a sound
sleeper, the night before. I told her my early morning remembrance and I
realized that these interdimensional thieves were stealing my astral body
or “soul” and I felt deeply religious, frightened and aware of my
“essence”, not my body, that I had discovered valuable to these
entities.
How could such a thing happen or be allowed to happen, in God’s
universe?
How can I explain their invisible , intrusive and harassing motives
behavior and tactics? How can I resist without invoking ‘revenge’ or
anger from these unseen thieves of body and soul? Who can I possibly talk
to about these assaults, nightmares, nosebleeds, dreams, and poltergeist
– like experiences?
Who could understand or advise me?
Only another “abductee” or “experiencer” who has successfully
resisted the evil of psychic or spiritual attacks.
Wednesday – February
“And forgive us our trespassers as we forgive those who transgress
against us” In the middle of playing bass guitar, at four in the
afternoon, the radio on in the background, a feeling of sudden anxiety,
free and floating, smacked me, making my stomach tight and my fear lever
climb.
I closed my eyes in sudden panic.
In my mind’s eye, three small blue – grey entities, stood at the door,
inside, watching me. The “leader” “intruding” into my psyche or
mind, usurping, ‘taking control’, causing anxiety; (as an intuitive
approach signal, I recognized). I ordered them out, putting the guitar
down, shutting off the stereo and amp and mentally ordered them out!!
Out!! Out !! Out!!
I was swept with their raw surprise; two left; evaporated, one, amazed,
reluctant, lingered.
I recited the Lord’s prayer and struggled, inwardly, to resist, ordering
him out even as he hesitated repeatedly. It took five long minutes,
minutes that seemed longer before the anxiety; i.e. the mental intrusion
and I felt alone. But I wasn’t. I went into the kitchen to boil water
for tea, leaving the room, turning my back, my mind away form the feelings
in the living room when a word, in my mind, emblazoned, looming appeared,
in letters large and capital. “BEREAVEMENT”. With my eyes open, the
words hung in space, as an afterimage.
Were they sad I had resisted? Tough shit!! I thought. Would they make me
grieve in nightmares, cry heartbreaking tears? What did it mean? Bad
dreams? In four days I was on a plane booked at a hotel to attend my
father -in - law’s funeral in Florida. Both the airfare and hotel rates
were listed as “BEREAVEMENT” rates on both receipts.
As well as being invisible they can see into the future and tell, warn us
of it as suits them… But it seemed as if it were a ‘slap’, a rebuke,
to have been told in such a cryptic stilted and intrusive off-handed way.
It was the ‘word’ as much a response to my rejection of them as it was
information. And most importantly it, the “WORD” strongly confirmed
that anxiety IS a symptom that intuitively alerts me that the psychic
intrusion, inference is happening. If the word hadn’t
appeared, I would not be sure that a wave of free-floating anxiety means
they’re already HERE and INSIDE… I was never really sure before. The
word “BEREAVEMENT” confirms that I was right.
If I can fight “them” in the first initial stages I can resist more
completely. But how can you fight something you can’t see? They change
tactics, redouble their efforts and make one pay heavily for resistance.
They’re addicted to abduction and also have access to interdimensional
creatures, who do their bidding.
Fight?
Resist?
My analogy is one of cows grazing in a world – wide pasture. They are
simply cows who eat grass under God’s blue sky and don’t acknowledge
or analyze because they’re only cows. But they love life and God and his
skies and his grasses.
Occasionally, something odd, bizarre; an experience of high strangeness
occurs; the farmer comes and milks the cows. Most pay no attention as they
are just cows who eat grass and, the experience happens when they are
asleep or dully unaware. The few (smart) cows who do resent the episodic
intrusion who are aware of the subtle meddling, kick over the pail and
spill the milk. They may even threaten the farmer himself.
For these cows, the farmer does not return; instead, he sends in the
‘butcher’ for these cows.
The ‘butcher’ is an evil, punishing entity, (interdimensional) who “MEDVED”,
“comes in the night” gives illnesses, infections, pains, organ
disease, death, in bidding retribution for the abducting, but now thwarted
entities, who resent resistance, in any form.
Tuesday – February
I often wonder, when at air terminals, awash in crowds, or at a ballgame,
how, seemingly unaware “bovines" are being “milked”, or whether
how many are truly troubled, aware of nighttime ‘visitors’.
How many people, thronged in diverse pursuits know? How many merely
suspect? The accumulated, slow built ‘evidence’ suddenly looms as
obvious as a trout in the milk. But would cows recognize a trout in the
milk?; most would go on to chew grass under God’s blue skies and deny
the subtle, spiritual interference as a ‘bad dream’, or their
imagination.
There is electrical interference with the T.V., bands of static and white
noise, every few seconds on all the channels, like someone is
broadcasting, nearby, on all frequencies! Ticks and knocks are heard in
the walls; laying in bed, in the darkness, I hear a soft but clear
footfalls in the attic and on the roof, paddling. The floorboards red and
termite ridden, creak and pop as unseen entities walk by my footboard, as
I toss anxiously; try hard to ignore the sounds, telling myself “How can
they just walk unseen, through walls and doors yet have enough seeming
weight of specific gravity to
hear them make the floor creak?” begin to pray, trying to mentally
resist, calmly now, over and over telling them to go: “Be gone, unclean,
evil spirit. Leave me alone, the power of Christ, himself, the Blood of
the Martyrs, God, himself, orders you to leave.”
-over and over –
I close my eyes, aware that anger, fear; all negative emotions are food to
them. My repulse must be totally positive.
I try to think of them as marauding intrusive raccoons who stumble,
motives unclear, into a trespass situation.
There are some who sat the entities forfeit. Their right to “no
attack”, physically when they intrude, but they never materialize even
when I know they’re PRESENT, physically, I cannot see them. Sometimes a
quick moving shadow or a flash of lights, (as though traffic could
reverberate lights into a room with the blinds shut), is what I imagine I
see. (They either “cloak” the area of their presence, or being at a
higher intelligence and vibration level (not higher morals) they are
simply invisible.) But they’re THERE. Outside of pictures of aliens
I’ve (thankfully) not remembered seeing
one ever. Perhaps I just keep my eyes closed and that explains the general
“blackness” surrounding vivid abduction memories, dreamlike in
quality.
“SLEEP!” “SLEEP!”
A hooded grey stands, tall, by the bed: “GO BACK TO SLEEP – DO NOT
AWAKEN” forces my mind to resume dreaming. I am in blackness.
When I awake, bereft of memories, tired, I swing my legs over the bedside
to reach the floor, and open my eyes.
A voice, in my head, not my own, but much like my own says:
“Time to activate”
That stops me cold as I rise. “Time to activate”?? That’s hardly my
jargon, word-salad, choice of words to describe starting another day;
“Time to activate” chills me as, (forgive me), EGO – ALIEN to my
thought processes. Here again,
I’m left to wonder, “What does it mean?” What? (I left as though a
“walk –in” has occurred into my mind psyche; an interloper
–possessing – entity. I refuse the thought; I don’t feel any
differently.) But that sentence is so strange it haunts me days, later.
“Time to activate”
Am I being monitored? Controlled? It sure feels like “Time to
activate” could be their jargon relating to the stoppage of oversleep
pattern into the consciousness.
Or is it replete with psychic or bodily conscious monitoring?
“Time to activate”
Activate what?!
What does it mean?!
I feel as though my inviolatible rights; rights over my body and spirit,
have been repeatedly violated.
March – 1999 Just before going to bed I heard footfalls creaking the
floorboards by the closet door. I close my eyes and mentally recite the
Lord’s prayer. A vision of a naked woman is flashed into my mind; heavy
–set, voluptuous. As I examine it, eyes closed, I realize that the image
is imposed on me for mental intrusion. I reject the image and try to see
Jesus’ face, or the ‘Sacred Heart’ of love that God has for mankind.
A white macabre mask of “Scream”; the phantom mask, mouth agape, eyes
grimacing looms into my mind. I recognize that, it too, has been imposed,
forced on me, to possibly scare me or answer my thoughts. I turn over in
bed, eyes closed and reject , pityingly and with contempt, the attempt to
startle me, holding a scornful, condescending, judgmental , disapproval of
the entities efforts, I hold the thought of how ridiculous, paltry and
ineffective the attempt at intrusion is.
I drift into sleep, confidently holding those thoughts against the
entities and trust to God and my spirit guides to protect me while I
sleep.
“St. Michael, Archangel of all angels, who defended God in Heaven,
against the Devil, I call upon you now to defend us in battle against the
Devil, whom I rebuke, and with God’s help, send him to Hell, along with
dark spirits who walk the Earth seeking to destroy men’s souls. Amen.”
“God, although I am not worthy, send me a guardian angel to protect me
from evil; I ask God to surround me, wrap me, in a bubble of divine grace
and light to protect my soul and body from being tampered with.
I ask that this white light of God’s Grace and protection come into my
soul to cleanse and purify it. I send out all my negativity, through this
white light, like so much dark smoke, hurting no one. And I ask that God
protects me in this white light, all day and especially, when I sleep, at
night. Please God, protect me this day and every night. Amen.”
“St. Lucy, patron saint of blindness, give me vision to sense the
invisible, to see into the darkness, to raise both my arms, in defense,
against the darkness and to have the light, divine light, protect me
against interdimensional, invisible beings, who mean me ill.” I drift
off, into an uneasy sleep. … If you BELIEVE strongly, that you are
protected, somehow, they’ll leave you alone. Why? Presence of mind is
our greatest weapon; the ridicule factor, is their best ‘defense’…
Who, in one’s ‘right mind’ can one even discuss these things with?
Paper, is indeed, much more patient, than people. When did thing get
worse?
It started at 8:00 P.M., 1995, Saturday night , December 2nd, after a
series of 22 ice storms, we, in New York sustained, that winter. The
ground crunched under my feet; icy –snow- covered sidewalks, underfoot,
total, thick overcast overhead. (Old temperature about 30°, and very
little wind)
I glanced up, overhead, coming into my backyard pantry door, dropped my
groceries and stood, arms akimbo, staring up at a strange, but not yet
disturbing or revealing sight. Overhead, a clean, crisp hole was cut into
the overcast, revealing bright stars. It was as though a cookie- cutter
had sliced a clean mile- circular hole, into the cloud – cover above.
Everywhere else was thickly overcast, but almost at zenith was a perfect
circle of clearing. What looked like a red child’s balloon floated into
view, a bright red against the stars and outlined blackness. The red
balloon stopped, joined by two more, which joined the first.
All three balloons hung red, overhead, stopped, in the center of the
‘hole’. As I stared at neck breaking zenith, puzzled at their not
drifting, three more floated into view, at the rear of the growing
formation, a flotilla, of red balloons.
All hung motionless overhead as I felt a sense of awe grow; my mouth fell
open with raw wonder. As one more joined, slowly from the rear, assembling
North to South, overhead, a group of Seven escaped red- children’s
balloons, hovered in the center of a blackness with bright stars, cut into
a heavy cloud cover. What were they? Balloons drift with the wind;
they’re not migrating, hovering birds; what are they!?
I stared in wonder, awe tingling my forehead, stomach and arms.
Their color changed from bright red to light lavender purple, all
together, all at once. Quickly, like minnows in a pond, they peeled off in
pairs, from West to East, heading toward Montauk, and were gone in several
seconds leaving the hole overhead; twinkling with stars; empty.
I am convinced that this “sighting” has everything to do with my
spiritual and mental experiences of high strangeness.
Did they climb down the ladder of my awe to find me? Or is it that my
“sighting’ was no ‘accident’?
Which one came first, the chicken or the egg? Maybe, it was the farmer
that came first. Was that ‘circle’ for their needing visibility, or
for me, needing visibility?
These meddling, harassing, unseen entities may be, in fact, the occupants
of those ‘crafts’ I stared at. I cannot be truly alone; they must be
many; like me; aware, resistant, troubled, and amazed.
If nothing else, these ‘critters’ have renewed wonder, in my life; the
sense of AWE and faith; faith that the spirit world does, indeed, exist,
and not only for malevolent entities. They’ve also destroyed the
actuality and concept, itself, of getting a “good night’s sleep.”
Sleep is now replete with danger and loss of control; consciousness and my
astral body wander, unknowing, while I sleep, among beasties and monsters.
My parents always told me, when I awoke from childhood nightmares that
monsters did not exist; not real ones. But they were wrong.
I was always taught; then, reasonably; that there was nothing in the
darkness that wasn’t already there in the daylight. They were wrong
again.
So with the newfound, long lost, sense of faith and awe comes fear of the
nighttime; the seeming primetime for bedroom visitors’ activities.
How do they ‘vibrate’ a ‘soul’ out of a body?
(Why bother?) You could simply take a sleeping body.
What are they up to?
Where do they come from?
The human mind- brain is a powerful tool; perhaps it can repulse their
efforts; if I focus.
I am always residually amazed at their psychic –mind –controlling
powers; powers that seem easy enough to unleash on people, during the
daylight hours, not just when they’re dreaming, wrapped in self-
delusional images.
(They seem to “enter” psychically, when one is in an altered state of
awareness; hypnosis- like, as when one is driving or watching television;
when “presence of mind” is altered, in some way. But sleep time is
commando tactics time, for them.
I thank God and my over-soul that I have rejected anxiety, as a constant
companion, in my life, and now recognize its sudden, free- floating
presence as the signature symptom of psychic- intrusion.
What a revelation, for me, personally; I must avoid evoking anxiety, by
life situations, poor decisions, family disagreements, and calmly trust in
a loving God, no matter what hardships occur; so that I can recognize the
EGO- ALIEN wave, flash of gut busting anxiety that signals me that they
are “arrived” and already (partially) “inside”.
March 1999
I have been visited by the “Butcher.”
Since I began resistance, I’ve been plagued with multiple, concurrent
mouth infections that required general anesthesia and surgery; and now
just a month later, my internist has confirmed “ I can feel your gut
coming through; it’s definitely a hernia.”
(Pain in both sides of my groin area may mean a Double procedure…)
They mean business. (I am convinced that a good hypnotist is needed to
give me unconscious protective techniques to serve me when I am
unconscious, (in sleep.)) (Can they ‘infect’ or ‘rip’ astral
frequencies to ruin the body’s health?) God.
I am tempted to stop all psychic resistance and willingly relent if they
will HEAL me, big -time; rather than watch my peripheral health slowly
disintegrate, as I resist…
Their ‘demon- like’ qualities were reflected in a peculiar incident,
one afternoon, as I was reading; Celtic –Irish accounts of
‘elementals’, ‘earth – spirits’ and ‘fairies’, who
culturally bothered, harassed, visited, and abducted innocent people.
A thought came to me; “These aliens, these psychic –vampires are
historically like indigenous cockroaches; culturally, they’ve been
‘intrenched’ everywhere, and as cockroaches, seek as ‘unwanted,
unclean, vermin dangerous to one’s health!!” – Celtic folklore.
I was sitting in the same wooden chair, I am writing this now; seated at a
table inlaid with floral- inlaid tile; my chair inches away from a wall
where a Remington Western print and Paul Klee print hang. I got up, turned
to rise and saw a monstrous, sedentary winged adult female cockroach,
shiny in three fully inches of oily, resilient insect, on the wall, inches
behind my recently moved head. I realized the potential for shock, panic,
disgust, horror, fear, revulsion; infestation- anxiety (we are cockroach
free); that those uncontrolled, negative feelings would feed the entity
either in satisfaction or pure psychic energy. I controlled myself.
I walked over to the sink, breathing calmly, controlling my heartbeat and
emotions, and in mild surprise and a modest sense of awe, at their seeming
ability to pluck a creature I’d been thinking about interdimensionally,
and respond to a mere unspoken thought, obviously monitored and
appropriately, albeit evilly, responded to; I got a handful of
towel- tissue, grabbed and drenched tight the enormous
sexually mature cockroach and tossed the wad into the garbage pail,
calmly.
Laconically, I thought “It’s a good thing I didn’t think of charging
rhinos!”
The point is their omnipresent insidious, evil, mind- reading presence;
I’d much rather be infested by cockroaches, than demons who can pull
cockroaches out of thin air to make a point. The point is;, Evil:
they’re in control are telepathic, in nature.
The Christians were right, about “sin”; not the Jews. The Jews say
“sin” is an act; not a thought. (One can think about homosexuality,
murder, theft, rape, but only the Act is sinful; one must not act upon
one’s evil ideas.) The Ten Commandments speak only to overt acts, not
thoughts. So does the U.S. law. The Christians believe God reads what is
in the soul, or the mind, to know the inner ‘sinner’. The evil is in
the thought, itself. They are right; it’s in the mind.
I have repeated proof that the unseen spirit world exists, (can be
sinister) and reads minds. Their minds; their motives are murky.
My faith in God has been strengthened, proportionately; with each
troubling experience of high strangeness. If there is a bottom spectrum of
unseen evil, as a bottom, there MUST be a top spectrum of goodness and
divine protection.
I have been snuck into (God’s) faith by the back door. Only God knows, I
need protection.
One of the off- shoots of harassment and other- worldly experiences, be it
ghosts, revealing spirit –mediums, UFO abductions, is spiritual growth
for the ‘victim’. I don’t believe that these ‘creatures’,
harassing, malevolent, deceptive, are spirit guides who evolve our
spirituality, but that such ‘growth’ is incidental to experiences of
high strangeness.
Fairies, Jinns, aliens, are molesting entities, difficult and dangerous to
‘shake’. But the power of the mind, as a tool; to rebuke them,
positively, in protection, is not enough.
Divine protection brings hope.
Physical and psychic resistance?
Pinched nerves, ripped stomach muscles, infected areas of the mouth,
nosebleeds, (Copius and left nostriled). Nightmares and exhaustion and
tremors in the leg are the psychical ailments I’ve suffered concurrent
with realization and resistance techniques. I know it’s no coincidence
and I’m only marginally paranoid, even after all these odd experiences.
But I feel I’ve been thwarting the farmer’s efforts to ‘milk’ me
and the ‘butcher’ has been sent to lend ailment spite work, into the
equation. I wish I could cause them BEREAVEMENT.
Anxiety- levels high, nervous late one night, hours before bed, aware of
them, intrigued. Enconched in the ironic sense of their plaguing
omnipresence, I posed a question playfully, internally; “Who was I
physically in my previous lifetime?” I wondered, since they tamper with
souls, throughout, and harass, inter-generately, in families, as well,
that they have bothered me in previous soul experiences, as well as in
this one. It was a frivolous, teasing, tangentially curious
question, I asked, myself; never realizing that I would be provided and
answer, of sorts. I relived it.
That night, I had a strange breathtakingly vivid dreamlike flash; unlike
an evolving dream scenario, it was a five- second- long lightning flash,
which was so short and so bright that like lightning, the scenes immediate
afterimages have lingered without revealing the whole landscape. I was in
mortal terror, panicked. I was in heart-pounding transit running fast
through a series of apartment rooms whose corner windows overlooked what
looked like a second story modern street scene; cars moved among the
parked vehicles.
The sunlight outside was bright, running, dry- mouthed, wide- eyed,
gasping, in fear. I fearfully rounded the street corner and ran past a
hall mirror, on the wall, before I reached for the doorknob, in desperate
haste to leave the flat. In that mirror, I caught a glimpse of myself
running for my life; as the door opened heart pounding; in full flight,
the scene turned to blackness.
Inside – The person who ran was me; me in every feeling and nuance and
thought, me in attitudes, likes and inclinations.
Outside – The picture, the lighting flash afterimage of the person in
the mirror was a young girl of twenties, with blues and blonde hair of
medium length, small in stature, pinched thin features clutching a bright
red pocketbook.
I awoke realizing immediately that my question, seriously considered, had
been given, fractional. Had they imposed these images, or ‘retrieved’
them form my subconscious? Was it a lie?
(I was stunned that I was to admit believe that the personality’s
nature, is unalterable; that much could be called the soul.)
What troubled me was that I had received a powerful answer on many levels.
The may have monitored “me” in previous lifetimes when I was not
“me” but really still was “me”.
Why were they interested in one’s soul? Can they “Splinter” the soul
and kindle new flames from those sparks to create new souls for their own
purposes; the way they would treat sperm or egg, baby samples, to create
new somatic creatures?
I remember a voice in my head: “You are an old soul; a very old soul
…”
When I was nine or ten, school was immersing and enveloping. Once, during
class, in the midst of grade school, in the fourth grade, during class, I
realized that I had floated out of my body and, looking both ways to see,
gauge, what reactions my classmates had to this miracle, and discovering
none, whatsoever, floated up in delight and flew around the ceiling of the
room. I saw all my classmates, below, engaged in animated conversation.
Wild joy gripped my heart and I drifted through the large paned school
windows unseen. I flew over buildings, chimneys, rooftop-advertisements,
streets, the exhilaration of ‘flying felt deep’ in my gut, wide eyed
with ecstasy.
Somehow, I was suddenly sitting, back in class. The teacher questioning
meaninglessly and I wondered how I’d returned. Nobody had known I was
gone. I blinked and stared, looking around, feeling very peculiar; I had
left the class, been outside and I knew I hadn’t just merely imagined
such a thing.
I never mentioned this to anyone. Not even myself!
Contact
Paul Schroeder: Cecropia999@aol.com
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